Living situation: I live with my nosey family in an apartment, I literally have no personal space or time.
Relationship status: In a long-distance relationship with my soulmate.
Pronouns: She/her.
What sexual orientation best fits you right now? I’m pansexual baby!
How many sex toys do you own? I used to have more, but threw them out because I broke them. Right now, I just have my bullet vibrator, and I’m in need of a glass dildo or a go-to rabbit vibrator - it’s hard out here (pun intended). I really want to try Smile Makers Collection, but I have been unemployed for over a year now and am trying to start a small business, so my sex toy fund is non-existent. I’ve been a fan since I was in high school because I saw you sold at Urban Outfitters. The French Lover has always intrigued me because Paris is just SO sexy (or Montreal if you’re Canadian like I am).
Do you ever use lube during masturbation? Never.
What do you call masturbation? I love masturbation to be long and pleasureful, I wait till everyone is gone during the afternoon, lock up in my room and have the TV loud in my living room so no one can hear me and play my fave porn videos, listen to some audio erotica, use my own body as inspo or ask my boyfriend to send me some nudes and go to town.
How would you describe your libido at the moment? I’ve always had a high sex drive. It helps me cope with stress and feel amazing. I’m genuinely a better person after.
Growing up, what kind of convos did you have about sex? No one talked about sex in my family or friend groups. I’ve always been sexually liberated and trying to find those types of groups. You didn't hear this from me, but I found that community on Tumblr (it’s better than a fetish site). When I was a kid in school, during sex ed we learned about pregnancy, but it was so scary. I’m glad as an adult I can do my own research and find it in a sex positive light, and as a woman, own that I love sex and physical intimacy.
At what age do you first remember masturbating? 11.
The masturbation diary.
Week one.
My birthday weekend, so my boyfriend flew out to see me. No masturbation for me, just catching up on two months' worth of sex!
Week two.
Ngl, I had so much work and bills to catch up on that the one toy I have wasn’t gonna do the job right, so no masturbation for me. My sex drive was low because I felt like I was in survival or automation mode, so not the best.
Week three.
This was amazing. I’ve started doing a full self-care day where I have fancy bath products, I do my skincare routine, I order some amazing takeout, and sit in the sun for a while after having a well-deserved edible. Once it kicks in, I’m back in my room letting all the pleasure and gratitude of life come. I felt that even 2-3 days after, I was glowing more and happier.
Week four.
After having a contrast of partner penetration, to no masturbation to full masturbation, I feel that I’m definitely going to go back to 2-3 days of solo time a week. Until my next visit with my man, at least.
Self-care isn’t just about feeling good — it’s about creating space to tune in, reset, and reconnect. When paired with intentional pleasure, even the simplest rituals can become deeply transformative. A warm bath becomes a sensory cue. Skincare becomes a moment of mindfulness. Solo play becomes a way to release, ground, or celebrate yourself. Silent vibrators offer discreet ways to explore, while massage and body oils help extend pleasure beyond orgasm — turning touch into a way to connect with your whole body.
There’s no single way to practice self-care or pleasure. What matters is discovering what nourishes you — and returning to it, again and again.
Masturbation diaries by the Smile Makers Collection community are here to discuss what we rarely discuss... how we masturbate! We hope to inspire and prove that every one of us is writing our very own sexual story. We also adore that it's a great time to reflect on our monthly pleasure and note how it impacts our wellness!
Want to share yours? Let us know what a month of masturbating (or not!) looked like for you, and if we feature yours, we'll send you Smile Makers' goodie as a token of our appreciation for inspiring us all.
